i go both ways

i like men (one in particular) but i like women too =]

if someone's beautiful or gorgeous why should we say otherwise? let me answer that for u, cos ur jealous! what's there to be jealous about? i personally think everyone's beautiful in their very own way. if not how do u explain heidi klum and seal? oopsss my bad =P

so i guess ive got a thing or two for women. but let me narrow down to this one special girl, whos always been there for me and i assure you, u'll always have a place in my heart, no matter what the circumstances are.

like u said, "how am i gonna live without u?" well, i ask that very same question to myself again and again. its hard but we'll survive, right? i know ur stronger than anyone thought u were.

we have our HAPPY moments dont we? ok now, let the fun begin! =]

-SMART TAG STORY-

this incident happened when we were in semester 4 diploma, it was during our final exams. if im not mistaken, that morning, we just finished our english paper so we were hanging around in the room like always doing nothing as if there werent any papers waiting for us!

suddenly i got a phone call from abg (my bf) he was in a car accident. somehow he drove right towards a tree. sleepy i guess. it wasnt that serious, just bruises here and there gigi patah and some stitches. however his sister who was sitting in the passenger seat had fractured shoulder.

of course i was shocked for awhile, didnt know what to do and stuff. his place is kinda far from shah alam, like an hour drive so u know i have second thoughts whether i should go or not. but since he's leaving like in a couple of days (sailing) so what the heck! ive made my mind i wanna go!

the thing is, i dont wanna go alone, ive never been to his place and maybe i might get lost, but who would want to follow me? everyone must be busy preparing for their finals right?

but thanks to my "special girl" she agreed to accompany me.

haha that was long, the story actually starts here ^_^

so i drove (since she cant but hopefully by nexy year boleh kan?=]) and we were reaching the toll plaza so i held my hand out, u know as a signal for her to get the smart tag in the dashboard but instead, guess what her reaction was??

esah dgn sangat skemanye pon BELAI-BELAI and USAP-USAP tgn kita hahaha. klaka la awak ni! she thought i was scared and still shocked bout what happened with abg and i need someone comforting me. tu yg free2 kena maen tgn =P padahal org nk suh amek smart tag.

so yeah thats the end of my story, its not that funny now when u read it, u have to be in that situation to really feel it. but seriously it was hilarious! esah awak memang lawak laa!

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now lets move on to the next story.

-COUPLE SEAT-

its the end of semester 6 before we both go into the real world for our practical training (sobsob), so how bout one last night?

wow wee its a DATE!

since its a date that means its just the two of us. i likeeee :D

we went to sunway pyramid, hell it was hard to find parking there. at last we managed to get one at the rooftop somewhere near sunway pyramid convention centre. which btw, we couldnt find our way back but luckily there was this guard who helped us.

so yeah, we reached the ticket counter.

"pisau cukur pukul 11.20"

"the blue seats are empty" while pointing at the screen.

esah pon pilih la the LAST row Q14 and Q15.

it was only 9 something so we went around looking for papa's birthday present. but nothing interest me so lastly i bought this blue-striped shirt for abg. kinda gay-ish but dunno why i still like it. i think im the one turning abg into a gay haha =P seriously, all the things ive bought for him its either really fit , soft or pink in colour, or u know the sort that gays wear. i have to stop i know!

pukul 10 kedai semua pon tutup! so we hung out at coffee bean looking down at the skating rink, theres some people playing ice hockey (never knew malaysia had this) we talked, we took pictures (of course) until it was 11 plus plus.

so kitorg pon masuk la cinema no 8 and straight went to the last row. it was a COUPLE seat! the funny part is no 14 and 15, they're separated in between. its like im sitting on one side of a couple seat and esah's sitting on the other side. do u get what i mean? its supposed to be a couple seat but how come no 14 and 15 arent together? ada pulak couple seat tp nk duduk sorang? pelik pelik.

i always have a thing with movies, the last time we went in during the wrong showtime but we sat and watch anyway. luckily it wasnt full.

oh rupanye, we sat at the wrong row, it was S14 and S15. couple seat didnt show at the screen when we bought at the ticket counter. so Q isnt the last row after all.

dgn muka tak tau malu, we went 2 rows down and sat at our correct places laughing our ass off.

pengajaran kepada nadia dan rakan-rakan yg laen, jgn biar pisang berbuah 2 kali (in my case 3 kali la kot)

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i guess 2 stories are enough for NOW! tunggu esah! there's more to come hahaha.

btw, take care of urself. be happy, be madly or crazy in love for all i care if thats what makes u glow and laugh like u do now.

to noraishah musa, yes you're my "special girl" =]

my very own love story

while its still fresh in my mind i better write it down somewhere (but in this case type it i guess) so that later i could read back and laugh to myself bout it. but even without putting it on paper, it will always be inside of me. i will remember this day, this perfect day until the end of time.

its friday, 14th of august. 12 days after his birthday and not forgetting 16 days after he came back from sea. he had it all planned out i guess. its just me who didnt see it coming. well, he mentioned it before but i guess i didnt take it seriously and thought he was just joking around.

so yeah, this is how it all begins.

friday morning as usual, i have 2 classes, english and financial accounting. hoorayy! no evening classes! this feels good, im sure u know what i mean. who would want to come to class on a friday evening? everyone's looking forward for the weekends right?

we planned to meet after friday prayer so bout 2.15 i was already waiting at the usual spot. we decided to go to the curve because he had to get something there. unfortunately the shop was closed or out of business or something. so we bought other stuffs in the list (yes, he has a to-buy list).

i was kinda tired because i didnt get my afternoon sleep hehe. after class instead of doing something healthful i would definitely sleep. its good u know. i dont know bout u guys, but for me its rejuvenating =] since i was not in bed at that hour i looked all sleepy and worn out.

he noticed and coincidentally it was almost time for asar prayer. so we went up to the level where the surau was. we sat at the bench and waited.

suddenly he said "arent u gonna ask about the surprise?" (yeah i know, it wouldnt be a surprise if the other person knows right? =P) but ok to be fair to him, he only said to me the day before he had something for me but i had no clue what it was. besides when i saw him he wasnt carrying anything except for a bag pack. since he left it in the car so i thought he mustnt have anything with him.

jeng jeng jeng =]

all of a sudden, he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring (eceh macam lagu taylor swift pulak haha). i was like...emm emm. i dunno how to describe my feelings at that time. everything in one i guess. delighted, blessed, excited, grateful, over the moon kinda feelings if u get what i mean.

i was shameful when everyone started looking so i pulled him up. i know he was nervous too. he didnt actually say "marry me juliet". maybe too early for that but i know how he feels and i feel the same way towards him.

and ohh the ring's beautiful. its simple with a small stone on top. just how i imagined mine would be someday. i guess that "someday" actually came true and im grateful that its with someone i could share everything with. he's a friend and also the love of my life.

ok enough bout the mushy part. but u know what, who cares? ur worth the mush =]

I LOVE YOU ZAFUL RULLAH HAKIEM BIN ZAINI

Disangka panas sampai ke petang rupanye hujan di tgh hari

Its been forever since i last wrote. I almost forgot i had a blog haha. Well this entry would be long trust me so peeps just bear with me yeah?

Today, 2^nd august 2009 is a special day for a special someone. I had it all planned, the picnic part of course which is this morning. Other than that was totally unplanned. In my mind dah ada dah the picture of us sitting together bentang tikar while watching kids play kites lari lari n kita makan2 borak2. Well some of it came true.

I had difficulties choosing a picnic spot. Some that came thru my mind was lake garden, tasik permaisuri in cheras, padang in shah alam and klcc. Mira suggested this really cool place she went with her friends called KL Pac kot but the thing is we’re not actually allowed in there takot nnt kene halau pulak. I wouldnt want a special day like today to be ruined by us being chased out by the guards kan. Kakak pulak suggested templer park? Kitorg tanak mandi sungai n the last time i checked, i mean when i drove passed that area, it was like some abandoned place and the signage made it looked even worse.

So after much thought, lake garden it is. But the thing is i thought of checking out the place first on saturday so u know i wouldnt be totally lost the next day. The last time i went jogging there (yes i do jog ocassionally =P) there was this construction going on so im worried it’ll still be on. Tp kan sbb tunjuk perasaan tu perhh all the roads were closed. I tried 2 roads dua2 pon tutup so yeah i gave up and just hope that its fine.

But i guess luck wasnt on my side, this morning when i went there they were still busy doing the planetarium thingy. Yg bumbung2 tu lepas tu seats yg tangga2 tu (dunno la what its called)

Oh lupa pulak, the day before he was with his family celebrating and his place is kinda far from mine. So td pagi he took the komuter and i picked him up then br g picnic tu. Usually it took me less than 30mins to reach his place kan tp td it took me 33mins hehe i know not much difference but it was a Sunday and the road was clear tp i had to drive like a kura kura bcos i had cupcakes on the passenger seat. I had to be extra careful. One bcos i might ruin the decoration and second bcos i made it myself. Tau kan nadia ni sgt susah nk buat benda benda gini so bila sekali buat mcm fuyoo sikit la hehe.

Ok now baru la the actual story starts. Like i mentioned earlier lake garden tutup kan but since we’re already there we just looked for some spot yg mcm rata sikit. Luckily near the playground tu ada and we saw some families jugak. Dengan tak malu nya, angkut la segala barang turun. A basket with egg and tuna sandwiches, twister apple, cups, tissues, kids party pack (which btw we had no chance to use, why i’ll explain later) and a helium balloon which says happy birthday of course, a fossil paper bag and the cupcakes. Emm i think i got all of them, oh cop and a tipu punya bunga sekuntum =P

Kat situ ramai org, there’s like a group of people family day mcm tu la and ada groups of chinese students kot taking pictures of models (wannabe). We ignored everyone and buat hal sendiri hehe. We ate, took pics and buka present. Its a wallet btw. I had a hard time choosing for him one. At first i thought of buying him a watch tp dia selalu guna this watch yg water resistant tu and the other one pulak jam besi which was a gift. I thought nape nk byk2 jam kan? So jalan2 lg jumpe this crystal chess set kan, its kinda cool tp i dun think it’ll mean as much to him as to his brother who is a major chess freak (oops sorry along)

Oh after about an hour, eh less than an hour kot tiba2 hujan renyai. There goes our picnic. Cepat2 kemas and headed to the car. I only planned a picnic kan, no plan B so i had no idea what we should do. The easiest thing was jom lets watch movie, cite the proposal.

We were on our way to cineleisure then suddenly dia teringat nk g jumpa kwn who’s working part time in an ice cream shop in subang parade. Call la dia tk angkat pulak so change again our plan and made a u turn to cineleisure. And then again, we were talking about pc fair and ingat nk beli laptop for his dad so low yat it is bcos kebetulan papa also wants to buy a laptop for himself. Aihhh! This time baru la betul we went to low yat at last. Besides buying the laptop he also wanted to buy this software for his new fon. Fon canggih sgt kan so he needed this garmin thingy for GPS kot. Tp later when we checked rupanye all the pics we took HILANG! I think somehow masa upload software tu org tu terdelete or whateva he did membuatkan datas in the fon hilang. Ishhh ada ke patut! So yeah takde la gmbar kenangan masa picnic tu. In our memory ada la. Tp saya ni dah la pelupa hehe.

Em k la dah penat nk tulis, i’ll just summarize the things we did the rest of the day. Blk dr low yat he insisted on meeting his fren so we went all the way to subang parade just to eat ice cream at the place where his fren works. im not feeling well actually, pening gila so i slept all the way. Tp since she’s his best fren kan so ikutkan aje if he wants me to meet her. Besides, she’s cool.

Blk tu i slept again. i had to send him home first then baru blk umah. I hate it, not bcos i have to send him but the feeling after that when i have to drive alone back home. He said if im going back to shah alam tonite he’ll follow me home, otw to shah alam i’ll send him. Since im not feeling well i guess i wont be going back to shah alam. Jadi abg pon tk ikot la blk umah. Alaaaaa tk besh nya. I really want him with me. I looked upset, he noticed. I guess its the fact that it wasnt much of a special day as i planned and it just passed by like that and secondly i’ll be starting my classes on Monday so not much time for us to hangout. Abg bukan sentiasa ada so i guess the time he has got now kena guna wisely. Besides, cuti 1 month je before raya naek kapal lagi. Macam ni la if bf org kapal. Sabar je la.

never grow old

last friday a bunch of us went to ulu yam for a picnic. we've been friends since high school. we seldom get to see each other, everyone's busy with their own life. but once in awhile we try to meet up, talk and catch up on old stuff.

usually our gathering or reunion would be in a shopping mall, have lunch together, laugh our hearts out which usually pisses the guard. but that's us! cant help it if we're so notorious.

oh this time, it was something different. cool different of course. unfortunately not everyone could come but we had a great time anyway.

its hard to find real friends nowadays who we could count on relentlessly, who stick with u thru the hardest times of ur life. so with this, i will cherish this great lot of friends i have now till the end of time =]

i love u pa

as all of u know, last sunday was FATHER'S DAY. i was away at a friend's place so i didnt have the chance to spend the day with my dad. i felt guilty bout that actually.

i wanted to msg him, i remembered it was father's day but somehow i forgot. so that special day just past without me saying anything to such a wonderful person, in million different ways.

two days after that i thought i HAVE to do something. he has been so great, done so much for me. he is the provider, the protector and HERO in our hearts. how could i do nothing right?

so i decided to do a card for him. its not much but as the saying goes "its the thought that counts" right?

money talks

yes it does! u like it or not we need money to survive but to what extent do we need it?

will it ever be enough? now when we have nothing, we'd wish we have 1 million dollars. but when we have it we'll be hoping we have more.

yes people are greedy and with the power they have they'll demand more.

its human nature, we just gotta accept it.

i dont want to be a hypocrite and say i dont want it, im happy for what i have now and bla bla bla. the fact is everyone wants more and same goes for me.

but of course im thankful for everything. basic needs all complete. i eat well thankyouverymuch, i have nice clothes to wear, and ive got a roof on top of my head.

so ask me what else do i need? it'll be a long list so just forget bout it.

why does that happen??

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later in life, if i have to live a life not like now (something i dont wish for of course but just saying) will i survive? will i be fine? i'd be lying if i say everything will be totally fine. of course it'll be hard.

but we all have to toughen up and be prepared for all the things that might happen.

everything we have could disappear with a blink of an eye.

so take time appreciate all the things around us and start to ponder upon all the things we've done.

u'll be amazed of the beautiful feelings u have inside.

welcome baby lana

she's my beautiful baby niece ALANA JANE

born on 26th may 2009 at 11.20am

weight: 2.67kgs

length: 46cm